This or Something Better

This morning I lay in bed at 5AM kind of spiraling, wondering if I had made a very expensive mistake. I was thinking about the money I’ve spent, the work I’ve put in, the pressure I’ve been quietly carrying over the past few months.

I invested over ten thousand dollars in coaching, building my summit, and in my business growth. But this year, speaker outreach felt harder than I expected. Some people were dismissive. Some ignored me. Some asked for things I could not offer. Some were flat out rude and even insulting. I questioned myself more than I like to admit.

For someone who has been self-employed for over twenty five years, that feeling surprised me.

Then this morning happened. I had a very calm thought.

I do not have to do this.

Jerry just received a big promotion. A few months ago, he interviewed for a VP position and did not get it. He was disappointed. But that role would have required him to live in South Carolina during the week for two whole years. I remember telling him, “This or something better.”

And something better came.

Out of the blue, a senior VP called him and offered him a position without even interviewing him. No relocation. Better fit. Better alignment. More money. 

So this morning, as I lay there thinking about my own business, I realized something.

I do not have to push.
I do not have to chase.
I do not have to prove anything.

If I want to build this next level, I will. If I do not, I do not have to. The pressure was self-created.

The moment I let go of the gripping, everything shifted.

So far today four new speaker interviews have been booked for the Online Income Playbook Summit. 

Nothing about my strategy changed in those hours.

My posture did.

Just a few minutes ago I finished being interviewed for the Founders Future podcast, powered by Closers.io. This is a company that works with industry leaders like Tony Robbins and Dean Graziosi.

If you had told the younger version of me, the woman fixing dolls at her kitchen table and letting people come to my house so I could show them how to repair their childhood treasures for free, that one day I would be interviewed by a company in that ecosystem, I would have laughed.

Yes, back then, I truly did let people come over and I would help them fix their dolls for free.

Today, that would be a ten thousand dollar in-person VIP day.

I don’t say this to brag but to show you the level of evolution that is possible for us all. 

On the podcast, we did not stick to a rigid script. We talked about my journey from doll repair to summit host. We talked about how I use hosting a collaborative summit to bring in warm leads. We walked through my buyer journey from a first purchase, to joining my email list, to moving into higher ticket offers.

I shared my biggest advice to my younger self: Start email marketing sooner.

Email has been the highest return on investment in my entire business. It is where relationships deepen. It is where trust compounds. It is where sales feel natural instead of forced.

We also talked about Pinterest ads, scaling physical products into fulfillment centers, and how delegating and hiring are my next crucial steps. My goal for the next year is to move inventory out of my house and into systems that free up my time. I want to build a six month group program with twenty to twenty five women inside it at a time. Focused. Committed. Growing together.

I never imagined I would be someone who hosts a large event that respected experts want to be part of without being paid. I never imagined I would talk confidently about funnels and buyer journeys. I never imagined I would say to the universe, more money but our way, and watch doors open in a matter of months.

But here we are.

The podcast episode will premiere in three to four weeks, just before the summit. As soon as I receive the recording, I will link it here so you can listen.

If there is one thing this season has taught me, it is this.

When you operate from need, you chase.
When you operate from sufficiency, you attract.

The strategy matters. The systems matter. But the posture underneath all of it matters just as much.

If you are in a season where you are gripping tightly, worrying about the investment, questioning your timing, wondering if you were foolish for believing in something bigger, I understand.

I have been the woman sitting in a windowless cubicle, desperately wishing to be home with my baby.

I have been the woman fixing dolls at a kitchen table, hoping someone would buy one.

I have been the woman lying awake at 5AM wondering if I overreached.

And I have also been the woman who whispered, “This or something better,” and watched something better arrive.

Not because I forced it.
Not because I deserved it more than anyone else.
But because I finally loosened my grip.

You do not have to stop wanting what you want.

You just have to stop believing it will only come through strain.

This or something better.

And then you stand still long enough to receive it.